Monday, April 4, 2011

We miss you!!!!

I am touched by how many people have responded to my first post and I hope that you will continue to do so. It is amazing how many lives Isabella has touched in such a short time. Even though Isabella was only present in my life for 18 months, it is as if she was always here. All of my most memorable moments are ones that she was present for. I never knew how much I could love another person until she came into my life. She was not only my daughter, but also my best friend. She had a sense of humour, a big heart and little touch of an attitude. I wonder who she got that from??? As I am writing this my stomach hurts due to the amount that I miss her. I miss changing her diapers, reading her stories, cutting up her black berries and most of all dancing with her and daddy in front of the television to her favourite song every night before bed. All of these things I assumed I would always be doing, yet here I am today wishing that I could turn back time and go back to those moments. I just hope that Isabella knows how much her Papa and I love her and that we truly enjoyed every moment that we spent with her. Thank you for all of the memories, for all of the love and most of all for being you. You are truly missed today and always!!!!!

11 comments:

Lucy santos said...

Marisa, I am too, glad you are finding a way to express your thoughts and feelings. My heart aches for you as I can only imagine the pain and void you must feel. You are really in my thoughts everyday as I wonder where you find the strength. Isabella for sure knew she was loved for the way you adored her she must have adored you. Please continue to write and express your feelings. You are truly an inspiration and I wish for you to one day come to terms with this life changing event. Please don't stop writing and sharing your memories.

Anonymous said...

Marisa,
Although we have not seen each other in such a long time, I have to tell you that I can't stop thinking about you. I pray that GOd gives you the strength to cope with this terrible, terrible tragedy. Your daughter was absolutely BEAUTIFUL. Be Strong and continue to write about these wonderful memories that you shared together.
xoxo

Chris M said...

Well said Marisa, I love the dancing story.

I think you’re doing the right thing by remembering the little moments. Her birthday and Christmas were lovely, but it’s the lazy Sunday afternoons, where nothing to remarkable really happened, that are really special. Continue to document these here and you’ll have them forever.

Our continued support to you both.

Cousin Chris

LisaDay said...

I am so sorry about your loss. I hope your blog gives you what you need at this time.

LisaDay

Jenny said...

Thank you for reaching out to me. I am so very sorry about your pain. Its so new and so fresh. I cannot believe it happened on the same day as mine. Writing was a huge comfort for me, it was where i could say what i needed to say but let me continue on with my life as well. Losing a child, a 18 month old like we did is something we should have never had to go through. I'm still devasted and lost without her. It still hurts to look at pictures, I still cry at the drop of a dime. It doesn't get easier but it does in certain ways. I'm thinking of you.

Natalie Turowski said...

Marisa,

This was such a fantastic idea. It's a great way for you to share your thoughts and feelings and memories. I think your writing is an inspiration to others that are reading this and may be going through the pain that Frank and yourself are. Your words are so touching and the poem so sweet it made me cry. I think Bella is always with you and she knows how much you miss her. You may have already heard this but I think your strenghth through this ordeal inspires those around you to be strong too. I think of you all the time. Love always. Natalie

Chris Coz said...

A couple weekends ago, we had a family "thing" and my cousin brought his little one, Lucas, who is about 7 months old. I was holding him for quite awhile so I sat him next to me on the soft. He reached over to grab his feet with both hands, pulled off his socks and threw them across the room. I immediately thougth of Bella. Brought a bunch of tears to my eyes. I miss that kid ...

Chris Coz said...

A couple weekends ago, we had a family "thing" and my cousin brought his little one, Lucas, who is about 7 months old. I was holding him for quite awhile so I sat him next to me on the soft. He reached over to grab his feet with both hands, pulled off his socks and threw them across the room. I immediately thougth of Bella. Brought a bunch of tears to my eyes. I miss that kid ...

Sandra said...

Hi Marisa. You are such a beautiful writer. I'm glad you and your friend created this site in memory of Isabella. It's a great place for you and loved ones to express & share feelings about the tragic loss of your precious daughter. My heart aches for you & Frank. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about your family. Even though I didn't get to meet beautiful Isabella, I feel like I knew her through all the stories Lucy shared about her. Lucy always lit up when she talked about her. She loved & adored her niece so much.
Through the love & support of your amazing family & friends, you will get the strength to make it through each day. Keeping those special memories of Isabella close to your heart will help. I truly believe Isabella is now your guardian angel, protecting you from heaven, still feeling your love every day.

You are in my thoughts & prayers always.
Lucy's friend, Sandra

Patricia said...

I love you
Have faith
A sign is on its way

Anonymous said...

Hi Marisa,
I cannot understand the magnitude of your loss...but know that you have MANY people who are thinking about you and who love you and Bella very, very much. Please take care of yourself.