Monday, August 6, 2012

"Little man"

"I miss you little monkey".   I cannot believe how many days have passed and how even though I look stronger from the outside the feeling of missing my daughter is stronger each and every day.  It just eats away at me and feels like a big ball of pain that is holding me down.  I am trying to stay strong for my "little man" so that I do not cause him any stress inside the womb.  I just want him to be cozy and safe at all times.  Yet I know that he feels my pain.  He knows that loss that I am feeling.   I read that stress could be as harmful for the baby as drugs or alcohol.   I expressed this to my OBGYN along with my concern over my stress.  She explained that stress and grieving are different.  That grieving is natural and will not harm the baby.  I just hope that along with feeling my pain that my "little man" also feels my love for him along with my anxiousness to hold him and tell him how much his mommy, daddy and big sister love him.