Monday, March 10, 2014

Three years ago today

Three years ago today was the worst day of my life. I went from feeling so happy to feeling like I did not belong. I woke up that morning as a mother of a lively, healthy little girl and went to bed as a bereaved parent. I still cannot believe that this is my life and do not allow myself to go back to that dark place that I hid in for so long. Today has proved to be a regular day in the sense that I miss her as much today as I did yesterday. But I cannot help but to revisit that day three years ago in my mind. All of the uncertainty that came with it. The shock, the disbelief and the pain that ate away at me from the moment that I realized that I would never hold my baby girl again. I would not wish that pain on anyone, not even my worst enemies. Thank you to all of my friends and family who have offered us support today through text messages, emails, phone calls and donations made on her honour. It is because of you that I feel strong today. Thank you for remembering Isabella today and always. Marisa