Thursday, May 5, 2011
I spent a nice day with family today and had a chance to discuss with my grandmother the fact that her mother had lost 7 sons between the ages of 1 month and 18 months. My heart broke when I heard this for many reasons. I was saddened that I never knew about this, saddened that my great grandmother had to endure so much loss, and even more saddened that in those times this was so common for families to go through. I asked my grandmother if they ever talked about her siblings that had passed ans she said that they did not. I began to cry for my grandmother and her sisters who know nothing about the brothers that they have. They don't know the way they looked or the silly things that they did. I expressed to my grandmother how sad I was because that is the complete opposite that I want in my future. I want any future children that I have to know that they have a big sister named Isabella. I want them to know that she had the most beautiful eyes, smiles and curls. I want them to know that she a sense of humour and that she is loving them from heaven. I want to show them pictures and videos and read them the stories that she loved. I want them to feel close to Isabella and to love her as much as we do. Isabella will always be an important part of my family. She is my monkey and my future monkeys will always know that their big sister loves them and watches over them every day. Your are my first child Isabella and nobody will ever take your place in my hear.
Posted by marisa at 11:42 PM