Tuesday, January 24, 2012


Today at school one of my students who regularly makes me pictures or crafts brought in a picture that she had made for me at home.  The picture was in the shape of a house and it was all decorated with ribbons.  In the centre of the house she had glued on a card that was from Mount Sinai Hospital.  Mount Sinai is the hospital where many of our donations go to because there is a doctor there who specialises in Infectious Disease, one of them being the Strep A virus.  In the summer my family had a picnic and raised money for Strep A research.  I kept looking at the picture and was amazed that there was a Mount Sinai card right in the centre of it.

I wonder if that is a sign that all of the efforts that my family, friends and I are doing at donating to Mount Sinai is being acknowledged and appreciated from above.  Maybe Bella is saying, "Mommy I know that you are trying to make a difference".  Or I wonder if it is just me trying to pull some kind of meaning from every little thing that happens.

All that I know is that I am constantly searching for some message to show me that she sees and knows all that we are doing.  I want some form of confirmation that she is right beside me even though I cannot see her or hear her. 

I miss you monkey and look forward to the day that I can hold you again.



lucy said...

I think you are bang on. Bella knows how open you are to her signs and she finds the most remarkable ways of showing them to you. I'm glad your eyes and heart are open to them. I'm sure she is so happy that you are acknowledging these amazing messages.
I know you can not hear and see her, but I hope to God that you can feel her close to you. I imagine that she is always right by your side...Where else would she rather be?

michelle said...

That was sweet of your student, confirmation is something we all seek even athiests. I often dream that Jack's will was so strong that it keeps his energy and atoms intact and that he will find a way to come back to me. I know that the love you have for Isabella resonates so strongly that she will always be close to you in your heart. She is always with you, she is a part of you.xo

Nadia said...

Sometimes I think that we get signs so that we can find peace even if it's temporary. We have to hope that our children are trying to comfort us by sending us signs to make us believe in that we will eventually be together again. Isabella is will you all the time, I'm sure of it.

Susan said...

I think it's hard not to look for signs to try and make sense of it all. I tend to think that if Catherine could really make contact, she wouldn't be doing so by leaving a feather on her grave, making a snowdrop bloom in the garden etc etc. Does that sound harsh? Sorry! On the other hand, if you get a sense that she's around... well - sounds sort of plausible to me. X x

marisa said...

Thanks guys for your comments. I respect everyones opinions and beleifs, even if they may be different then mine. I know that I do beleive that Bella is sending me signs each and everyday. Those signs are helping me get through the hard days, and for that I am forever thankful.

Patricia said...

OF COURSE IT WAS A SIGN!!!! AMAZING!!! AND THERE WILL BE MORE! LOTS MORE!!! (I hope you put that in your journal :)

Susan said...

Hand squeeze for you X x
Keep going Marisa - you are doing so well xx