Thursday, June 2, 2011

Thank you

I have to say that the weather has been amazing lately. I know when I began this journey (sounds better then loss) I did not embrace the sun. Right now, the sun has been a welcomed change and I spend every moment possible sitting outside.

I have been doing a lot of praying lately, and it seems to be helping me a little. At the moment I have resolved my anger with God and no longer feel like it is me against the world. I still do not understand why God chose Isabella, but I do not understand why God chooses any precious child. If I had the power to change the situation I would do so in a heartbeat, and bring Isabella and all of our children back. But, I recognise that God did choose her for his own reason. He has a plan for her and it involves her waiting in heaven for me surrounded by all of the family and friends who went before her. I know that she is happy and I imagine her with a smile on her face looking down on me. I also imagine her in Mother Mary's arms with one of her hands slipped down her shirt (which those who know Isabella knows she did often).

I am not healed, I am not better, but lately I have found myself smiling a little more. I truly believe in the power of prayer and I want to thank everyone who has taken the time out of their day to pray for the healing of me and my family. I can feel your prayers and I appreciate them from the bottom of my heart.

The support from family, friends and people who have never even met me, is what is helping me cope through these times.

Thank you

11 comments:

Lucy said...

Your post today is truly inspiring. The power of prayer is amazing and I am glad it is bringing you some strength. Your faith will help you and Frank learn to cope with your new life and your family is here for you both every step of the way.

Angie said...

I'm very happy to hear that you've been spending some time outside and enjoying the beautiful sunshine. No doubt, Isabella is very happy to see her mommy smiling and enjoying the nice weather.

I will keep praying for your family and hoping that you will find the strength and courage to continue to journey through your new life. I may not come visit often enough or call you everday but you, Frank and Isabella are always on my mind. I keep trying to think of ways to make you smile. I'll always be here for you should you need me.

With all my love,

Angie

Karen said...

Marisa & Frank,
I visit your blog often to see Isabella's pictures because they make me smile. Sometimes I hesitate to read because I know I will cry. It's nice to know you have found some comfort to ease your pain. Your difficult journey has taught me a lot, your courage is amazing. I want you to know that not a day goes by that I don't think of your beautiful Isabella. And you & your family are always in my thoughts & prayers. I hope I can see you soon.
Love, Karen

Mary G. said...

I am so happy to read this blog. I am sure that I am one of many to see you progessing to another level in this journey. We all love you so much and only want you to experience more peace and less hearache. I will keep praying for you and know that I am asked almost daily how you and Frank are doing as so many people are praying and thinking of you also.

michelle said...

I think having the love and attention of understanding family and friends is such a precoius gift to help you get through this. My struggles have been more difficult without having the understanding and support from my family but I have experienced the kindness of strangers and made some new friends which has helped alot. Sounds like Isabella had some funny characteristics -put her hand down her shirt everyday- too cute,thanks for sharing. My well wishes are with you.

Chris Coz said...

Being outside in the sun is where Bella would be, giggling and running about, and so I'm glad you've been seeking solace in the gorgeous weather we've been having.

Looking forward to seeing you tonight!

Hugs,
Chris

michelle said...

ummm, I wrote this kinda poem story for you in anwser to your questions about why God chose her. I am athiest and so please forgive my ignorance if I dont know alot about your religion. I am just trying to help and I get these things- stories that just pop into my head.I also hope its in no way offensive to you, I dont know if your even allowed to write stories about God.If not please delete it and know my intentions were good. I bantered back and forth as to wether to send it to you.Ok here it is

The Gift
And God gathered a group of children that had not yet come to earth and he said unto thee.
You are very special children and I love you so much and I have seen your fate.
I must tell you that when you go to earth you will only get to stay a short time.
I am sorry there is a cycle of life and death and even I being God cannot change fate on earth, I can only guide you.
Remember though that I am here with open arms for your return and will love you always.
Because you only get a very short stay on earth I am giving you a very special gift that not all children get.
I am choosing for you very very special parents.
These parents will give you enough love,joy and comfort to last for all eternity.
With this gift you shall be fullfilled upon your return to me until that time when all of your family will rejoin once again in my kingdom.

marisa said...

Michelle,

That is the most beautiful story and it brought tears to my eyes. I hope that you are right and that that is exactly what God had told her. In no way, is this story ignorant, it is the total opposite. I think that you have quite the talent for writing stories and I can imagine the amazing stories that you told Jack.

Thank you so much for putting a smile on my face.

Angie said...

Marisa,
I agree with you about the poem that Michelle has written. It's just beautiful and it makes me feel like Isabella was chosen because she is such a special little girl. You and Frank are the best parents any child could ask for and she was so very lucky to have you both as her parents.

We are all very grateful to have had Isabella in our lives; even for the short time that we did. We love her very much.

Hope to see you soon,

love Angie

michelle said...

Thank you thats good to hear, I was hestitant about posting it. I am glad it helped.:)

Chris M said...

Glad to hear you're enjoying the Sun Marisa. I hopr to see you guys soon.