Saturday, September 15, 2012

Preparing for Bella's brother

I am back.  It has been a while since I have posted my own thoughts or even read other peoples.  There has been so many days that I wanted to sit down and write, but the words did not want to come.  I have said it before that I just get tired of saying the same thing over and over again.  I miss Isabella so much and even though I am coping much better today then I was last year, the missing has not gone away.  It never will.  I miss her as much today as I did on March 10th, 2011.  Maybe,  even miss her more.

I am back at work and am trying to get the house ready for the new baby.  I am grateful for the distraction as Isabella's birthday approaches.  She would have turned 3 years old on September 20th.  Her and her brother would have been 3 years apart and have been so close.

I have started to get the babies room ready.  I had to go through Isabella's clothes and try to find things that her brother could wear as well.  I was not opposed to putting Bella is blue or green so it was not to hard to find some.  It brings me some comfort to know that her brother will wear some of her clothes and have a peice of her with him always.  The rest of clothes I had to fold up and put in storage containers.  I cried as I held up my favourite peices remembering how beautiful she looked in them.  I think that she was with me as I went through her clothes and that she gave me the courage to do so.  She gives me the courage to face each and every day.

I miss you sweet girl but I know that I will see your beautiful, eyes and sweet smile again.  I will hear your voice  and experience your kisses.  I look forward to the day that we meet again but until then your papa, brother and I will miss and love you always.



michelle said...

When are you due? I am thinking of you Isabella and baby boy.xo

Susan said...

I'm so sorry Isabella isn't here to enjoy the preparations for her little brother. It is so wrong.

It was brave to tackle her room. I have done things slowly. I keep reminding myself that I don't have to run to a schedule because Madeleine is here. Even at 14 months, she is still in my room with me, and she's still too young to really be aware that "her bedroom" is still shared with her sister's belongings. But I do recongise the need to sort things out before the baby comes.

Much love xx

Lucy said...

Every new phase in life seems to bring new challenges. Even the happy ones like welcoming a new child into your life. Bella is with you every step of the way and provides you constant love, support and strength.
So many people ask me about you and Frank and admire the many photos I have displayed of Bella. She lives on so strongly in those who knew and loved her, but also in so many people she never had the pleasure of meeting.
I miss you Sweet Bella. You are always in my heart and in my thoughts.

Angie said...

I can't even begin to imagine how hard the task of going through Isabella's clothes would have been for you. I am sure she was there with you both every step of the way and gave you the strength to do it.
If you need my help in any way please don't hesitate to call on me.
I love you with all my heart and miss our sweet baby girl so much too.


marisa said...

Thank you all for your responses. I always appreciate alll of your support. This baby and Bella will always share the same room. A large of her will be present in that room always.

Jenny said...

I keep ignoring everyone, I look at blogs maybe a every 3 weeks? If that. I have no desire to write, i just bah! SO i understand :)

Im so happy the little guy will be here soon. While they make us crazy in every possible way, be it the crying, the sniffles/colds/ the breathing, etc etc etc they are the greatest blessings.

Josie said...

Marisa, thinking of you always. I know that your sons' arrival will bring you so much joy. Remember Isabella is with you and she will be watching over all of you always.

Hugs and Kisses,