Monday, March 10, 2014

Three years ago today

Three years ago today was the worst day of my life. I went from feeling so happy to feeling like I did not belong. I woke up that morning as a mother of a lively, healthy little girl and went to bed as a bereaved parent. I still cannot believe that this is my life and do not allow myself to go back to that dark place that I hid in for so long. Today has proved to be a regular day in the sense that I miss her as much today as I did yesterday. But I cannot help but to revisit that day three years ago in my mind. All of the uncertainty that came with it. The shock, the disbelief and the pain that ate away at me from the moment that I realized that I would never hold my baby girl again. I would not wish that pain on anyone, not even my worst enemies. Thank you to all of my friends and family who have offered us support today through text messages, emails, phone calls and donations made on her honour. It is because of you that I feel strong today. Thank you for remembering Isabella today and always. Marisa

5 comments:

Nonna Clarkson said...

Bella you are always with us and we will never be forgotten. The love we share and the special moments we experienced with you are in our heart forever.
Today has been difficult as it brings us back to the day where we had to say good bye. Although we know you are happpy in heaven surrounded by all the other angels it is difficult not to want you here with us.
You will always be our precious little princess and you are the one I turn to when things get rough.
Thank you my beautiful Bella.
I love you more and more each day.
Nonna.

Unknown said...

Thinking of you today...

Love,
Joyce

Lucy said...

Sending you all the love, strength and support you need on this especially difficult day. We miss Bella so much too and have personally found this anniversary even harder than the last. I feel her close giving me strength, I hope you do too.

Anonymous said...

Thinking of you today Greco.

Isabella will never be forgotten.

Love, Mah

michelle said...

Thinking of you and Bella xo